i found out what i'm supposed to do... i think
SO I THINK, i figured it out.
For some reason all these particular scriptures kept coming to mind.
alma 15:16
in the temple i read some scriptures. I thought each time it was saying "go back out immediatly"
but the spiritual feelings i felt didn't agree with that.
I now know what i'm supposed to do. I feel at peace with this idea, even though i'm really scared to do it.
I'm going to go to school this year, finish up the degree, then go back out on my mission.
I know that sounds awfully weird, but i think thats what i'm supposed to shoot for. I don't know if it means that just striving for it will be the matter (like my sister did) or if i'm supposed to execute, but either way i'm feeling really good about it. I'm glad. I finally feel like all the peices are coming together.
Heavenly Father places little bumps here and there to jog our memories. alma 15:16 reads
And it came to pass that Alma and Amulek, Amulek having aforsaken• all his gold, and silver, and his precious things, which were in the land of Ammonihah, for the word of God, he being brejected by those who were once his friends and also by his father and his kindred;
so i woke up yesterday with that scripture firmly implated in my skull. I read it and was really confused, i thought i was supposed to leave now. I now know, with a spiritual confirmation, that next junish i'll be back out. Hopfully back to florida, but thats probably doubtful.
We'll see what happens, but you've got the heads up for now. Spiritually, thats what feels right. We'll see if i listen or not, or if the prompting stays this strong.
Peace be unto you.