20... getting over life.

Saturday, August 27, 2005


So... Monday is going to be a 24-hour day. Officially.

3:30-8:30 Graphics
8:30-12:30 Train on Avid
2:00-7:00 Editing
7:00-???? (probably 11pm or later) Edit Podcast

3:30 AM graphics again.
(repeat same schedule minus podcast)

so those two days are going to be hell. I've come up with a plan to combat it though...

I'm going to stay awake for as long as possible tonight (hopfully go to church, etc etc) then maybe go to the mertlichs... then at around 7-8 PM i'll go to sleep. That way, i'll have to wake up at 3:30 anyway.

The plan is in motion. We'll see how well executed it goes.

Its gotta work... mainly because it has to... and not so much because its a good idea.

Maybe, in fact, I'll take a nap right now and get my body used to the idea of going to sleep around 6-7 pm.


UPDATE: 8:30-- Totally made it, and fine. Should be maxing out at around 6:30 when I need to go to sleep. Plan is a-go, and we should be all gravy.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005


SOrry for the lack of updates latley... i've been busy.


iPod: Dead.

School: Starts next wednesday

Life: Great

Depression: Manageable


Sooo.... the hd is dead. You got a 30gb hd lying around? I want it.

School sucks... it starts next week, and its costing me a ton-o-cash. Like 500 ish or so.

Life is great thanks to my job. Today, I wrote an entire two hours of news for the morning show. Not the most compelling pros of my life, but not the worst either. I turned down a full time job, because this job rules hardcore.

Depression rears its ugly head, but i figured it out i figgre (british for figure). I think its related to food... or the lack-therof. I think it might be almost a diabetic thing, but just not as extreme. It seems like when I eat anything, anything at all, my life seems to work better.

Thats todays update... let me know if you want more... cause there is more.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

one step away.


I got the UI back... but my ipod is formatted in hfs+... so its only working on macs.

I might have to force myself to buy a mac.


51 hour week!

I love this. I love working at my station. I'm working 51 hours this week! THAT IS SO AWESOME! I'm kind of hoping that I could transition into producing, but if not, i'm down with working 7p-7a, 11p-7a, then 2p-11p.

My ipod broke, but i'll fix it soon.


Wednesday, August 17, 2005


The thing about the media is that aside from the natural bias that comes from being the work of a human reporter, bias is more or less inevitable in today's American media. People don't watch C-Span or Euronews where there is little/no commentary and only footage. People very rarely form their own opinions anymore. That is the true danger of our society, not the media. It's our own inability to ask pertinent questions and draw conclusive answers, because we naively leave the questioning up to others.

We are our own sheep.

I didn't say that.... someone else did who's really smart. Its this kid that just moved in's brother.

Thursday, August 11, 2005




I like today.

Friday, August 05, 2005

I hate this week.

I don't know if I've ever felt this combination of physical sickness and emotional sickness at the same time. This week, I filled in for our morning guy. He went to a conference (siggraph) in california, and I'm the vacation filler.

Holy crap. I hate that schedule.

I hate everything about it. It screwed up some side projects I was working on, and really just screwed everything for me.

I feel probably the worst I've felt in an year emotionally, and I really don't know what I can do about it.

I have this anxiety that I can't really describe, but its weighing on me so heavy right now that its not even funny.

I'm sure next week will be better.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Three Hours of sleep enough?

So over the past couple days, I've been working this TERRIBLE schedule... and only been sleeping like three hours a night, or so. Today was no different, except I went to bed at 10 pm and layed/lyed (whatever) for a few hours. I know I got at most 3 hours again, and today I'm a little groggy, but not too bad. I'd almost take the bit of groggyness for all the productivity that would add.


Tuesday, August 02, 2005

I'm not invincible.

By the way, i'm not invincible.

I really thought I was for a long time, but today I realized i'm not.

This working at 3:30 am really killed me, and my credibility.

So I started working on that podcast yesterday at 11pm. I screwed up majorly on a lot of things, thanks to the fact (in part, not in full) that I had 3 hours. I did a lot of idiotic things, didn't double/triple check things, and now I look like an ass.

I just hope I didn't screw myself permanently. I really am a hard worker right? Or maybe i'm just an idiot.

I went home to try to fix it, and couldnt, and then i tried to sleep, and couldn't do that either.

It was a terrible day.


Strangely, at 2:51 AM, I have nerves.

I finished the bloody podcast about 51 minutes ago, and now its getting published. Its weird that people are going to start listening to the things i'm doing, and I'll actually have an audience. I really REALLY want to do this stuff full time, but I've got to finish stupid school, and that crap.

Speaking of school, I'm going to have one night class, two onlines, and hopfully i'll freaking graduate.

Monday, August 01, 2005


So what does one do when its 3:00 AM and you're waiting to go to work? Finances!!

October 21st or November 4th should be my independence day. That is when I should be out of debt. Sans school debt.

Speaking of school debt... 3 credits is... almost 600 dollars.


Yeah, basically I just screwed myself by not graduating this semester.

Oh well, you live and learn.


I don't think there is possibly a worse shift than 3:30-12:30.


I can't sleep before it very well (three hours regardless of where I start sleeping.)

So... I guess I'm doomed to be a zombie again tomarrow. The upside? This time I get to go home at 12:30. I'll probably not die as easily.


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